America

The scene is 2016, March 18th, Friday, early afternoon; my then-15 year old daughter and I are at the Bernie Sander's rally held at This is the Place State Park in Salt Lake City, the crowd of 14,000 snaking around as if forever, pedi-cabs (blasting Bob Marley) ferrying people from their distant cars under a … Continue reading America

Diary of a 4th of July

          7/4/2016: Diary of a 4th of July Worked (all felines: Izzy, Jack, Piper, Clark, Lucy, Darko, Todd, Burt, Mica—love them all); Graham and Lauren come over, Ellen and Julia join, Ellen’s friend ending his Ramadan; foster kittens, hard lemonade, shitty Malbec, salsa, chips, guacamole, ohdeargodwhydidIeatsomuch; Ellen/Julia to meet her friend, … Continue reading Diary of a 4th of July

The Dead

Pic 1: "Ladyfinger, dipped in Moonlight, writing ‘what for?’ across the morning sky.” May this day and all others see us into skies speaking songs to the calm of a gentle world. DD2 and I were talking the other day about the 27 Club. It started because she’d told me how much she liked the … Continue reading The Dead

“About me”

The site title "Aimless" is a moniker I received from my AP Economics teacher Mr. Rosen at Aptos High School (CA) in front of a class of my peers--who didn't know me except as the shy, new girl whose face turned red when she had to speak—which hit an emotional target that's taken me over … Continue reading “About me”

Sunset on an old self

I’m in my car, sweaty after a day of working hard, surrounded by a bunch of shit like a mobile hoarder—my windshield needing replacement so bad I’m about to ditch the whole circus on the side of the road—and it’s the night I start to reclaim my ankles from the bloat my unhealthy eating (due … Continue reading Sunset on an old self

Everything looks different

Last night my girls, Ellen, and I watched Thelma and Louise together, and because I'd forgotten how long the movie was, the event lasted into the early hours of today, at which point my youngest--who'd been hesitant to even watch it at all for the last scene she'd heard so much about--excitedly chatted to me … Continue reading Everything looks different

“All Apologies”: Finding the Meaning of Nirvana

[1980 words; 9 min 54 sec; dysfunctional marriages, submission, emotional abuse, divorce]

The “I’m going to single-handedly save this marriage!” off-switch was pretty hard to find during our final years together. (Maybe it was hidden under the super-hero cape I thought I was wearing). My brain just couldn’t last a second, at the end of the marriage, without....