Benny

Dear Benny, I cannot explain my species. Can’t encapsulate for you their darkness; have no idea why your entry into this world saw you endure cruelty to where even now that you’re safe, with a new family, you panicked when you saw me—shaking, cowering, running—like you have no hope. I cannot help with this. I … Continue reading Benny

An interesting species

Steve and I at UC Davis, circa 1989 I’ve been thinking about my college boyfriend Steve so much lately. In August, I reached out to him impulsively—knowing that he probably wouldn’t even get the email; I was drafting his address from my malfunctioning memory— because it felt like what I had to say needed to … Continue reading An interesting species

God/Us

A few years ago, my daughter Livy was surprised when I told her I believed in God. She was 16 (I think) and didn’t know because I don’t tout God or observe religion unless it’s imminently relevant because for me God/source is such a big truth it doesn’t need to be spoken of. Since: of … Continue reading God/Us

The journey to “Amy Brook”

  Pic:  My younger brother Jeff and I circa 1971; I was 3. According to the birth certificate tucked inside my baby book, I was born October 1, 1968 at El Camino Hospital in Mountain View California and my name was “Amy Brook Palleson”. I don’t remember any of the other fluff on it—height, weight, … Continue reading The journey to “Amy Brook”

Everything looks different

Last night my girls, Ellen, and I watched Thelma and Louise together, and because I'd forgotten how long the movie was, the event lasted into the early hours of today, at which point my youngest--who'd been hesitant to even watch it at all for the last scene she'd heard so much about--excitedly chatted to me … Continue reading Everything looks different